“Matt, don’t you play in band?”
There was a time in my life when I was afraid to admit it being in band. Maybe it was the lack of tackles and slap shots, or possibly I was embarrassed because the players were not as cool as football or hockey players. Then again, it might have been the strange combination of athletics, music, and academics that I carried through high school.
What is it like playing varsity hockey, and playing flute and piccolo in the symphony band? I am used to this question by now. The answer is simple: it is like me. Both activities are enjoyable and come with different benefits. It was not helpful that my hockey teammates were less than supportive about my playing with the band. But, I do what I want for me and not for anyone else. This is a value that my mother instilled in me at a young age.
I never really fit into any crowd in high school. So, I just hung out with everyone and came and went as I pleased. While it sounds easy, it can sometimes get a little interesting. Coming right from hockey to a band practice was always fun. Walking into the room 5 minutes with hair still dripping from the shower was common. Is it raining out there? Was the question my director would often ask me. Although there is one time I remember renouncing band and all of the things that I had done with the band. After a long talk with my mother I realized what was truly important to me: me. I am a musician, a student, and an athlete. If you lose one of the three it is no longer me.
No matter how much I renounced the music, I could not deny the rush of playing my solo at concerts where everyone was concentrated on me. When I practiced my instrument I was alone. I could center all attention to every note, every vibrato and detail. Time slowed down when I played (in either hockey or music), at those moments, it became the only thing that mattered. I simply could not think of another activity in which all the forces in my body and mind were so concentrated on one common goal. I have proudly realized that I am a unique person with many qualities.